Becoming a Mother
It’s exactly after 1 year that I am again writing back to my blog. I am not surprised that I didn’t pay any attention to it. I was so much engrossed in a new aspect of my life. First it was my pregnancy and then my new baby. I am fascinated by the wonders life has given me after Arnesh is born. Everyday I am swayed by a feeling which is deeply rooted inside a mother’s heart and was so-far untouched and unfelt for me. The feeling is so new and magnificent and wild and uncontrolled that I am not only overwhelmed but amused as well. The first 2 weeks were the best as I was in a constant intoxicated phase, as if in a perennial trance. The feelings were exactly like the 10th sip from a glass of red-wine or may be like constantly drinking Margarita . I was heavily suffering from sleep deprivation as Arnesh has to be fed and cleaned every 2-3 hours even during nights. I reached a state when I could pay $1000 to take care of my baby for a night. But I could not do it as I don’t trust anybod...